Merry 2006.

When I'm tired and thinking cold I hide in my music, forget the day Boston -- More Than A Feeling

Somehow, this has become the worst Christmas Holiday. Yes, Christmas itself was wonderful. But I feel less relaxed than I did during finals week. I feel like The World is urging me to "grow up"... yet I don't want to. More than anything, I feel that I have been sucked dry this holiday. This "vacation." I am learning my weaknesses. I need time to myself yet I must work hard to get this time to myself. I also must work hard to stay in school (working hard equals paying off my loans before I retire...) Oh, I don't know where this is going. Basically, music has been my only escape. I think the trip to the Pacific will do me good. But I think I need a week or so to recharge my "batteries" before this term starts. I feel like I have been going constantly since last year. When I was asked this morning if waking up at 7 a.m. was early for me, I quickly responded with a "no" then realized that I have been waking up at 7 a.m. for over a year now. Where has the time gone? Am I really a "grown up"? Please, no. My only time to relax involves a set of knitting needles and a ball of yarn or listening to music in my room [alone]. I might as well pull up a rocking-chair next to the fire (or heater) and pull out my AARP badge. Eek! Can I really be over before I have begun? 2006. Yes, 2006 will bring changes. What will they be? God only knows. Will they be good? I hope so. No, I will not make any resolutions other than approaching each situation in the best manner possible. That includes grades, work, relationships, sports, you name it, I will rediscover my positive-"half-full"-attitude toward life. Bring it on.